Today's trip to the doctor

I have had my tent pitched by the river for some time. I don't know if I thought the diabetes would just go away. I think part of it was that I was not losing weight (had gained) and didn't want to deal with the doctor fussing at me. So I have been off meds for sometime, my sugar is out of control and it has been a major effort to get out of bed. I had been thinking that I was just being lazy and life didn't need to include getting dressed every day, I was perfectly happy to wander about the house in the jammies. Good for the enviroment, I am not wearing clothes so will not have to do laundry.

Today when I went to see Dr. Amanda (she really is a PA but I like her), I told her about not wanting to get up, my insomnia is terrible (even with elavil and neurotuen which should be putting a horse down) and I didn't know if this was a result of my blood sugar being so high. Reality is, I've been like that for some time and it is called depression (does this mean the camping on the banks of the Nile is going to end? I doubt it). So I have antidepressents. She first mentioned Welbruten. I took that when I was first quitting smoking. Didn't sleep on that stuff so that was out. I have effexor xr. Anyone familiar with this? Even that is supposed to make me sleepy too. Hell, Nyquil doesn't even make me sleepy anymore, to my body it is liquid meth and I am up all night with the mind racing.

I am back on my metaforin and lisinopril/hctz and will probably be back on glipizide next month. This is in addition to the ditpropan that I am taking so I don't keep having to do the gotta go, gotta go run. We have not ruled out surgery to correct that.

At least no one is fussing at me for gaining weight, some of the meds are supposed to help with that too.